You Asked Me Rabbi
Tamara Fish
You asked me Rabbi
For a few words before the holidays
Still stuck in Elul and its ponderings
You asked me kindly Rabbi
To reflect on what it means
To be on the edge
Of what?
Elul you said
Death I felt
And to be narrowly on the other side
What insights might you have
About what?
About approaching the New Year after a year of harrowing illness you said
About kissing death I heard
What have I got?
Well you asked so I'll tell ya
I got the body I've always wanted
Trim hourglass
No extraneous lumps
It came at a high price
Tumor's gone
Also half my innards
The inability to eat a full meal
No fat ass, though, so
I'll take it
I'll take it and the question mark
A long melon scoop cradling my belly button
No one ever sees the scars
Varied as they are
I've lost something here
Still don't quite know what
Who the hell knows anything about anything
Not the time
Nor the day
Nor the hour
Nor even the person in front of you
All I got is a question
Ain't it good to be alive?
And a lone tear crawling on my cheek